Nuestra Hermana i

Why do I keep looking at these awful co-op craigslist ads under housing?

Maybe because the pricing seems right but then you read shit and it’s like a giant circle jerk about how fucking awesome and ~liberal~ they are but they have a thousand restrictions including no sort of meat or dairy products are ever to touch the fridge because that’s murder and EVERYONE can be vegan if they ~try hard enough~

Talk of how they prioritize POC, QPOC and queers (no mention of disabled folks in any ad I’ve ever read so far, not even as an after thought) yet it turns out the entire 8 person household has not a single person of color and it’s totally in the heart of the bay area (what??)

Lots of talk of being intentional and community driven

I guess I’m going to end up in teeny tiny “apartment” that suffocates since, all these beautiful giant co-op homes don’t seem to even consider the existence of disabled qpoc & as much as I can be intentional about getting up at 8 am every morning to walk the dog ooonly 8 blocks as part of my required community support it really depends on if my body is even going to let me get up before 9 that day

Oh how fun it is to be chronically ill/disabled in the bay

I would love some texting buddies :)

Especially for those can’t be productive too worn out so imma sit and text from my tablet type of days

If you want a texting buddy send me a message!

Yay

i understand the feeling.. just remember thats what racist assholes want u to feel, to feel angry & frustrated. punch a pillow, scream, if it makes u feel better.

Thanks love. I punched a pillow and said a lot of cuss words directed at this person.

working out makes me feels better.

Yeah, before my illness this was what helped. I’m not able bodied anymore enough to exercise so…. lol

I’m really angry.

I haven’t wanted to punch someone’s nose in a while. 

Goddamn, how do you let a giant frustrating-angry ball of emotions out without violence? 

Like I really don’t even have the strength to beat the shit out of a pillow at the moment 

But I don’t want to be stewing in anger caused by a passive aggressive racist 

LOL and that last post made me lose a follower. 

Seems like all you have to do is say the words “white” and “racist” in a sentence; regardless of how true it is….. 

Someone I basically have to deal with is just ruining my frickin’ mood tonight. I’m trying no to let it get to me but it’s so hard. 

A huge part of me is like IDGAF if you dislike me, but the other feels awful because they don’t.

Let’s just say it’s one of those must be around them relationship & they should accept you as “family” but clearly don’t.

Context: they have never liked me/ accepted me and it’s definitely due to the fact that I replaced a certain white girl like thirty million years ago & I’m clearly brown and opinionated

Racist white folks who passive aggressively make your life hell with a smile on their face; I swear.